The-Fair-Wanderer

My life is all the same Sitting at the top of these stairs Afraid to join the party Afraid to go back inside The fear of social interaction The fear of being alone Watching the ongoing Of other people's lives Looking through the window of desperation Hiding behind the cigarette of false hope Fake confidence Hide the pain in a bowl Light it up Inhale the memories Breathe out silent screams A mask like no other Don't you date shed a tear The dark hides my face Makeup hides the truth The sleepless nights Laying beside you this morning In the messed up sweaty sheets A night fulfilled A dream long ago given over A hotel bed So symbolic A night